I am NOT a Lady of Leisure
Freedom. It’s the thing that sold me on entrepreneurship.
At first, I was sold on the idea that I could have the freedom to live in Paris with my then boyfriend (now husband) without ever getting a real job.
I was sold on the idea that I would never ever again be micromanaged by a boss with a post-it note vengeance.
I was sold on the idea that I would be able to design my ideal Tuesday as I saw fit. I could go to matinée movies (I’ve still never done this), spend the morning exploring a new part of town (nor this), or enroll in a weekly yoga class (nope, not that either).
After seven years of entrepreneurship, I’m happy to say that I’m one of the lucky ones who has actually managed to build a sustainable business.
Okay so I’m working on the sustainable bit.
But it’s a business, alright! One that supports my life in not-so-cheap Vancouver, BC and gives me the freedom to plan my day as I wish!
The problem is, all of this freedom has turned out to be semi overwhelming.
Now that my business doesn’t solely depend on me to function (yay!) and I am not putting out fires on a daily basis, I find my schedule to be even more open than before.
I have virtually no “tasks” assigned to me on a daily basis. (<— a good thing)
I have some meetings scattered throughout the week, but not many.
First, let’s celebrate the fact that I have arrived at the Holy Grail of entrepreneurship!
Ok, now that the celebrating is done, allow me to outline my “problem” to you:
I feel aimless.
Up until this point, my weekdays have revolved around gettin’ shit done.
I’m used to waking up at 7:30 am and thinking “Oh shit! I’ve gotta get those sales emails written before 10 so that so-and-so can get them scheduled!”
In short, I’m used to operating on ADRENALINE.
But not anymore.
In fact, I recently took about 3 weeks “off” of work. The reason I put that in quotations is because I wasn’t really off of work…I just didn’t have anything pressing to do.
Sure, I checked my email every day and popped on Instagram stories.
And at first it felt ah-mazing to sleep in every morning, binge watch Call the Midwife on Netflix, cook homemade meals, etc.
But after a few weeks of this, I got B-O-R-E-D.
Hence, the aimlessness that currently perplexes me.
Okay, so what I’m trying to say is that over the past few weeks I learned that I do not, in fact, want to be a lady of leisure. In other words, I LOVE WORKING.
I’ve already got new business ideas, book ideas, and creative ideas!
And though I’m not quite ready to execute any of these plans (my life coach told me to sit in the gap for a bit), I am ready to take action on one thing: BECOMING MORE SELF-DISCIPLINED.